in the blink of an eye ... SHIT

Yep, you heard me. SHIT. That's what my day turned to yesterday in a millisecond. Now I know there are bigger worries & real tragedies out there but I was really out of sorts over this. My post yesterday was all happy ... excited about the party & all the things to come this fall. Then Charlie came in with the news that the car would NOT be done by this weekend, maybe not for another week or so after that. WELL. That will be 5 weeks. I could not believe it. Nor could I believe that I would have to postpone the party ... and I sure as hell was not picking a date based on projected finish times. I was REALLY upset. I said a lot of words that would get me reported if I shared them here with you. Then I completely denied it ... I calmly ordered beads. I think I better check that order before I send it because I think I pounded the "ADD TO ORDER" key quite a few times ... Anyway, my first job this morning was to contact everyone about the party ... and NOT deliver the remaining invites. So it is all on hold. And I am trying to just let it be and not obsess about "when????". ( and hoping that we enjoy BBQ pork loin ... for days and days because that baby will expire before the car is done so I guess we are eating it ... every last pound of it ...) But, no, I am letting it go...
My mom came yesterday with the inheritance money from my Gramma. That was also a bad point in the day. I didn't say anything . I just left the envelope laying on the desk. Everytime I looked at it , it seemed to be the saddest money I have ever seen. You see on TV that people have things left to them in a will and they are all excited. They obviously didn't love the people who made the will. I would so much rather have my Gramma. Had she not died, we would have been just 3 weeks away from flying out to Alberta to see her. This would have been a very exciting time. Anyway, it is what it is. I am using the money to build a beautiful garden up on the hill behind the house as a memorial to her. The garden shed is all planned out, we have added fruit trees, a fireplace has been installed, and next year I will start to build fences and add flowers. It is a beautiful calm place that overlooks the Bay of Fundy and the fabulous sunsets. "Gramma's Garden" will be a place of peace & beauty.
Then we get home to find that the wood has not been cut up ... and we are still walking the plank. That pissed me off even more. ( I was actually in quite a foul mood at the end of the day.) I "anger ate" a handful of too salty chips ( emotional eater ? Me ? never ...) , set off the smoke alarm with the BBQ, dropped cheese all over the floor, and then lay on the couch with a blanket practically over my head. The day was getting out of hand !!
Oh well... I am over it today ... ( do you believe that ?) ... actually now that I have contacted people & set aside my plans, I am kind of over it. I did get to see a baby raccoon and a deer last night - that was good. The cats didn't throw up in the night. That was good. My tea was hot & yummy this morning. That was good. Actually so good that I am going to go make another cup ...
Have a great day ... have a cuppa ...
( Hey ... maybe we can squeeze in the Wharf Rat Rally AND the Bash for Cash this weekend ...hmmm........!!!!)